You know how when you get older and time seems to zip on through. Months go by in a week, days within hours? Time right now is kinda...wobbly. It's not even been a week since he left, but it feels much longer then that. The thing is, I'm not wigging out, or obsessing. At least not too much. I'm still making myself go out of the dorm all the time and talk to people. I'm becoming better friends with my roomate and suitemates. I'm making friends. School seems as though it could easily overwhelm me if I don't keep up with all my work. But hey, that would also be a great way to keep preoccupied right? The classes that look thus far as though they can overwhelm me are...Animal Lab, Bio lab and Lect. and maybe math. The math isn't completly confunding, I know I can get it. (Katz I <3 u always for giving me more confidence in that). It's just, I miss him, a lot. It was so weird, after a nine month seperation within a half an hour it was like we had never been apart. I had forgotten, and yes it was kinda forced, how...happy I feel when I'm with him. I can completly be myself, no reserves or anything, not that he would let me anyway. Whenever I try to close myself off, he nudges till I spill my guts. It's unerving! Damn't this wasn't supposed to happen. In high school, he was the one pinning and in love with me. So when did it become mutual? Im glad it did, a little, but it's so frustrating. Why is it that it seems something is always pulling us apart. Literally? I guess it's a sign that we shouldn't be together, yet. W/e school is good, life is not in caos, and I am making more friends everyday, and pushing myself. I'm being strong. Which is what I promised both of them.