I broke up with Matt this morning. We got into a fight last night, even though were on a break. And he finally confessed what he's been feeling. He's tired of my anxiety and my worrying...he's tired of me. I can understand, since being in this relationship my anxiety has increased, and I believe my depression has gotten worse over the past month. Relationship's are supposed to make a person feel good right? Your supposed to want to spend time with the other person, not avoid them. It's just not the right time for me to be in a relationship. I'm glad that I've had the experience, god am I glad. I know what it's like to be a loved girlfriend. He treated me soo well, he did everything he could do to make me happy. However, it felt sometimes as if he was seeking solace in me, like I was some kinda mother figure....I always had to take care of him, and I understand that is part of what a relationship is, taking care of the other person. So then why did he never take care of me? I mean, he comforted me when I was upset, but he never helped me solve the actual problem, it was as though it wasnt such a big deal to him. I think taht after all this I've realized I'm not ready for a relationship, I need to grow more as an individual before taking one on again. But it's good that I have this a shot. He'll still be my friend, because in reality it is his friendship that I have yearned for all this time. I dont know, but I feel somewhat light inside right now...I feel free.