I cannot believe how hurt I am. He said to me that he didnt want me to believe that there was no chance for us. That he wanted to get to know me better as friends, and spend time with me. Yet in the past month there has been no hanging out, no real conversations, at least not the ones that I wish for. He has a girlfriend, yes it's official and more than that there was another girl that he was talking to when he and Ashley (the gf) were not a couple yet. He likes this other girl, a lot, he likes her so much that he called up Don and complained to him about how torn he was at 1:00 am. I'm in so much pain right now. I've called him and left messages. None of which were returned. Seeing him yesterday, after week of not talking or seeing him he IGNORED ME. He spoke to Don, and after band practice talked with his other friends, but there was no real effort on his part to speak to me. I feel like such a fucking moron. I should never have told him that I liked him, I should never have called him. I broke all of my rules and it got me no where. It seems that whenever I dont like a guy, he pursues me and then there "blah". But I pursued him and I got screwed over. I dont want this to be the end, although in my heart and mind I know that it wasnt going to go anywhere anyway. All it was going to do was hurt me. I may be a fool, I may have let myself believe a bit too much. When am I going to be able to get my timing right. It's never right, it's actually a big joke for everyone. I can laugh it of most of the time, but this time all I can do is cry. I know what this pic seems to look like, but really its just because looking at Zero makes me smile.