For whatever reason, I have been missing my ex. I know that I shouldn't, but I do. For a long time I believed that it was all my fault that we broke up. But after some time I remembered just how much of an ass he is and how he was never there for me. I think I miss him  because I see so many of my friends in relationships and very happy in them. See, I never got the goodie romance stuff. I was never wooed, I've never been surprised by romantic gestures, or had any real romantic gestures from boyfriends. I want that! I want the guy who is going to put me first, the guy who will want to sweep me of my feet. I want to be able to rely on him and now that he's gonna be there for me! I'm tired of being some kind of mother figure to jerks! Like Jeremy and Don, oh my god, you will never find more insecure conceited assholes! And yet, they are my friends. Jeremy, isn't as bad a Don, since if I really needed him he would be there for me. However, he believes himself to be charming and funny and all he is is obnoxious and full of himself with bad social behavior. He's a joke at times and other times he's emo. I'm not going to get into the other people cause I really don't feel up to it. I'm tired. I'll write more later. Night!